The Brindsley Files: Living in the dark By Clea

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You could say that the major events that happened over the 4 years I was with Brindsley occurred in the dark. Most of these happenings may have taken place in our bedroom…
Sex was always an important part of our relationship. I enjoyed having the control and I know he enjoyed being controlled. Name any sexual act, toy, or game and we will have done it, numerous times. One of my favourite experiences was a drunken, “accidental” threesome with Mr Gorringe, that is something I will never forget!
Brins always been quite self-conscious which is probably why I’m the dominant one in the bedroom. He believes he needs praise from others in order for his art to be excellent. If no one says anything he doubts the work he has produced. He’s always been like that. When I first met him at an art showing, I said that one of his sculptures could be the work of a good artist or a chic fake and he kicked off as it wasn’t a full compliment! Sometimes I wish he would just believe in himself and create art work that he alone is proud of. During the last three months of our relationship, I felt like I hardly saw him (apart from in the bedroom but even that wasn’t as great as before). I tried talking to him but he just kept on shutting me out. I wish he would talk to me properly rather than giving me freedom to do what I will in other areas…
That is one of the reasons why I walked out on him. Also the fact that we had been together for four years and Brin had made no hints at all about popping the question. I wanted to make a statement so I decided the best way to do that would be to flee the country and travel to Finland. Brin and I always wanted to visit there so I knew it would irritate him! Trouble is, I missed him like crazy from the day I left. Brindsley wasn’t just my lover, he was and is my best friend. We both need each other and I just hope he has also realised this in my absence.